the girl next door.

Hello there, I'm Joanna, I'm a 15 year old girl who resides in average Adelaide.
I wish I could wake up early and walk around my block every morning, to get fit.
I love the weekends, because that's when I don't have to worry about anything.
I've been with my boyfriend, for quite a long time and I love him more than anything.
I like honest people but some are too opinionated.
I can't be angry or hate someone for too long, life's too short.
I love every song of Taylor Swift, I think she's really amazing.
I believe that, I have an OCD with my school diary /hehe.
One day, I will write a long long list of all the things I want to do before I die.

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seduction leads to destruction.

And as we walked we were talking.
I didn't say half the things I wanted to.
Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window.
I'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold.

Hey Tony, I could give you fifty reasons.
Why I should be the one you choose.
All those other girls, well they're beautiful.
But would they stick around?

This isn't right.

You delete everything you've ever used.

Bebo, Soompi & Blogspot.

I don't know why.

Is it because, i find them and read them, then comment about it?

It probably is.

But that's no reason, you should delete everything you've ever turned to.

Maybe, i ruined them all for you.

Drastic measures.

What's going to happen, when we both have recovered?

Think about the aftermath.

I don't know how to feel.

I miss you.

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I just wanna die.

Tonight

I am eating pizza (:

My life is now complete.

Tony.

I miss you.

And i hate fighting with you.

I really do :\

It makes me feel so edgy when we have nothing good to say to each other.

And you have school tomorrow, i guess i need to wait til 5pm, to talk to you.

But i guess you're not going to read these, because you've started school again.

And im defintely sure, that you have no time to read my shitty blogs anyways.

- 'Cause every girl's a hint
Just to pass the time when
You're not around
You're still on my mind -

Im so used to fighting with you, i know what it feels like, or how its going to turn out.

But i know how much i love you, and its strong enough to get over our silly fights.

Its so gay that every fight, is about the same thing, but different person.

I hate that you can't trust me to the fullest.

But it's my fault anyways, that you can't.

I know sometimes, it may seem that i have something going with a new person that i've met.

But truthfully, i dont like them.

Matter of fact, i dont need them at all.

I dont need anyone else, but you.

You know me inside out, and hopefully i know you inside out.

Past 2 years have been worth it.

Every minute of it.

- If i ever tell you that i would be fine without you in my life

I couldn't deny it'd be the greatest lie
Words can't describe just what you mean to me
You know I need you tonight -

Words can't describe how much i love you.

Actions probably wont show how much i love you.

All i know is that i need you.

And that i want you.

Stop making it difficult

for me, please.

I really hope

Everything will be the same.

School work is obviously top priority.

But i just dont want you to forget me, during that process.

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The more that we talk, the more time that we spend, i know that i want you to be the one next to me.
All the signs, all point to you, I guess i shouldnt fight the truth.
But im trying, thats my word, i swear im trying.
be faithful is hard but you're my only one and im not only.

When you're not around, you're still on my mind - -
I dont wanna hurt you, i dont wanna make you cry. I dont wanna play you.
I just wanna love you.
I dont wanna break your heart, i dont wanna change who you are, i dont wanna stress you out.
I just wanna love you.

I know that you're one of a kind, more than a dime.
Im not here to waste your time.
And im trying to give you all of me, it aint easy.
I wanna switch my up style, believe me.

Im human, i make mistakes.
But i promise you im worth the wait.

Today's bad :(

Its 41 degrees here, and everyone's in a bad mood.

Bloody people on msn, i hate you all.

Actually, i dont mean that, but im so sick of everyone.

Also, i really dont wanna return to school, fkn hell.

I really dont wanna be in a new class D:

What if, i dont know anymore :|

Freaking kill myself.

I think im gonna wolfteam now.

Fucking the heat is getting to me.

Oh i totally left my pride.

One of the faggot slyed me out on wolftteam.

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Lol.

Last night was bloody awesome :)

Although, i went off like really really early D: 9:30.

HAHA! msn was fun ;D but Tony was missing in action :(

Anywho, yesterday i drank so MUCH water.

Freaking hell, LIKE HEAPS OF BLOODY WATER.

And literally felt like i was going to vomit D:

Ew. Well i needed good skin for today (A)

Even though, i woke up today, i didnt even have good skin.

Motherfucker D: All that drinking for no reason

Grr :(

Over and out, baaaaaaaaaaaaby!

When Tony isnt online :(

I tell everybody else, that im going to wolfteam :(

Well im getting pretty good, surprisingly :D

I swear, everyone thinks im a guy now (A)

Haha stupid wolfteam noobs, are all oblivious!

LOL anywho, you guys wanna spot out what's wrong with this picture - above.

Laggy cunt /shake.

Well we were in the Covelt Bridge map.

And he was still in the Arrival map.

D: How funny :)

Dearest San.

Stop stressing about school :)

Wait, what day do you start school?

Tuesday?

And you wont fail, term 1 :)

i miss you D:

WHAT THE FUCK

is wrong with everyone.

seriously.

i just wanna kick someone right in the face.

im so fkn mean, when it comes to her, BUT SHE'S A BITCH.

fkn hates me for no reason.

SO IM GONNA HATE YOU TOO.

TONY wasnt on..

So i decided to crank wolfteam.

Mmmyeah.

I ranked again.

But now, i need 30K exp to go to the NEXT LEVEL RANK THING

master sergeant :DDDDD

thats like two ranks under GOLD BAR. hell yeeah (H)

i think im awesome :]

Ew.

I just read/heard some shit D:

ew some dirty stuff going down.

I FKN HATE HER.

Why hello there :)

I played wolfteam, when i was waiting for Tony to come online D:

But then, he never even came online :|

4 AK-47 sprays in a row :D

fhsbfhsdfbhdsbfdhbf

i hate tonight.

End of story.

OMDJFNGJHDFNFUCKMENOWBHDHF

San, im going to convert into a Jewish!
COME BACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCK ASAP
PLEASE :(

seriously, im missing you so blooooody much!

Dear San :)

I have one last and only thing to say to you..

I think you should fake a disease D: A disease only Australia could cure :(

Because i miss you so bloody much!

HURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY THE BEEP BACK! D:

Australia's population is decreasing RAPIDLY, because of your disappearance.

Dear San.

I have a three things to say to you..

1. ODfndsgbnfhdbghfdbgofdsmmfmggmgmmfdbgbsfhBFSDHSBDHSD

ALL TIME LOW :O i nearly died when i saw your page :)

All Time Low are so YUM! LOL! We have such great taste in music /shifty eyes.

2. I REMEMBER CBC BOY! the lovely boy with pretty eyes and luscious hair, you mentioned him a few times to me! And the attempt of a Christmas Card. Im so sure he has noticed you many times :) You're beautiful, so of course he would :)

And in your life, i'm definitely sure that some guy has liked you back, but they just never really grew big enough balls to tell you.

3. I miss you :(

San baby, you make me feel so alive.

Has never been so fucked up in my whole life.

There's no need for everyone to continue to read, i just needed to write it down.

Well i think, my family is officially screwed, and i don't know what to do DD:

Everyone just hates everyone, LITERALLY!

San i need you back :( I just wanna tell you everything.

You just might be the only one that will be completely and honestly happy to hear

me complain, for countless hours.

hsdbfshfb i wanna die DD:

Oh and, i love you Tony.

I miss you, Tony.

Mr Winter, did you miss her?
For the 3 months you were gone
Had her waiting all night long.

Mr Winter, don't forget her
She'll be waiting all alone
Please just say you'll come back

Oh no D: We're nearly going back to school. Im rather scared.

But only because, we're splitting into different care groups :(

BUT i love 8/9 White D: I've been with them for two years already.

Why make us split now? :(

I have a strong feeling, that i'm going to cry on the day D:

EW, WHAT IF I'M NOT IN MAKAYLA'S CLASS!

SHE'S GOING TO DIE WITHOUT ME D:

Im scared :(

Over and out. x

My 30th Post.

Seriously, define: Jealous.

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It has been decided that The Maine, is my favourite band. I just downloaded 3 acoustic versions of The Maine's songs.

They are so bloody awesome. And i thought you should all know that :)

Over and out. x

While in the change rooms..

I couldn't help but notice, how disturbingly hideous i looked, in the body length mirrors.

It was unbearable to look. How skinny, am i now? I continued to wonder, if something has happened to my eating routine. This is the reason why, people continue to question my skinnyness.

Anywho, today, there was this awesome guy, who inconveniently hogged the DDR machine, for three hours, straight.It's safe to say that, this work of wonder, was extremely good at DDR. He had made more than 1000 hit combo's. I was absolutely astonished. I was lured in by the loud tapping, on the mat, but slowly realised that i could not stop watching.

As crowded as it was, I managed to pull myself back into reality, and walked away from the lovely sight.

As the day dragged on, I have never hated shopping so much in my life. It was hard to believe myself. But i did not buy one piece of clothing. My money was wasted on useless and unnecessary stuff.

Highlight of the day was that, I saw guns up for sale, in a dark shop. It was amazing, but creepy at the same time, they even had the correct bullets to go with it.

I was strangely bewildered, and stared at the shiny pistols in excitement, as i quickly squeeled to my brother.

That is all.

Over and out. x

I have never been so bored in my whole life.

Why aren't the people i usually talk to online?

It has been decided that tonight, im going to watch

the new episode of 90210 and Gossip Girl :)

And and im definitely going to bed early tonight :(

Over and out. x

Why is it that ..

No one hardly ever comments on my blogs :\

I need a nice calm movie.

to watch right now :(

Ew, im feeling so bhdsbfhsdbf!

Or maybe i should just sleep and wake up tmr.

I could try that, but i would just eventually wake up during the night.

Over and out. x

Just came home..

and im fucking tired. Its actually not my fault, that we stayed at ttp for so long, its my dad's, for not picking us the fuck up.

And when i get home, i ATTEMPT to rest, but no.

The evil man, blabbers on about how i dont help out.

Three quarters of the time, i try to help, and do things myself.

He takes the job from me, tells me i cant do it properly, and does it himself.

When im doing it perfectly fine.

So he does not have the right, to constantly scream at me.

HE STEALS MY FUCKING JOB! WHEN I TRY TO DO THEM!

SO HE CANT FUCKING TALK.

I dont think i can never hate someone more than i hate him.

Not even as much as when i do hate my brother.

Please someone save me from this misery D:

Over and out. x

Hm :(

Last night, was not so bad after all. Tony, i miss you so much D: And it hasnt even been a day yet. Ill probably like ruin your trip, if i continue to complain.

Well Hien is a nice company, we had a good long talk about stuff, and im glad things are off my chest, now that he knows everything. Just to clear to air ~

Thank you Hien for being there for me :)

and I love you so so so much Tony.

Id die for you.

/runs and hide.

Tony still hasnt msged me D: Im getting all edgy, and scared :(

I told him to msg me as soon as he touches Sydney D: to know that he's safe. Still nothing.

Oh shit D:

Or maybe im just overreacting.

Over and out. x

Dictionary :)

This is what girls really mean, when they say these things. - I would know.

We need to talk - Its either, she is about to break up with you or she is annoyed about something, often concerning a third party.

Do you love me? - It does not mean that we want an expensive gift, which guys assume. When a girl questions your love for her, it can mean only one thing. You need to give your undivided attention to her, or you are most likely to come close or even meet the 'we need to talk' phase.

I have a head ache - Its either, she's actually telling the truth, and has a headache. Or she could want you to comfort her, or hold her.

Does my butt look big in these jeans? - Even though, im a girl myself. I highly recommend you say, No. Whether its true or not, period.

Or once again, face the 'we need to talk' phase. I advise you to NEVER agree with her, when she puts herself down or as such, regardless.

Lets's go out - This either means, 'we haven't been spending time together much lately, i miss you.' or she wants you to stop Dota. She wants to go out alone, so you can shower her with your attention.

Yes - Means yes.

No - Means no, period.

Maybe - Means no.

But, i love you - She wants something.

I love you - This is the most important line, a girl could say. Firsts things first.

Scenario 1 - She loves you, this could mean, she's in love with you.

Scenario 2 - She loves you, because you're there for her, because you're her friend.

Scenario 3 - She loves you, because she wants something.

Scenario 4 - She loves you. but not in that way.

Scenario 5 - She doesnt love you, its all a lie.

Okay, i must admit. The most recent rant is awfully mean.

But some things are incomprehensible.

I feel like deleting that blog.

But it took so much effort.

Over and out. x

I hate bloody Adelaide, it sucks. Don't you hate it when people click on you, and say 'Hi', and then you reply saying 'Hello there'. Then like 43546 hours later, another 'Hi'. ZOOOOOMMMG. Talk to me, if you want. But dont strike a conversation, if you're only going to say 'Hi'.

I just felt like ranting about that :)

Anywho, i need a break, from this shitty state D: Seriously.

Enough about the down side.

Anywho, i play a game called 'Wolfteam'. I love playing FPS games, they really take my mind off things. Things clouding my mind, things they are unnecessary. But not to say, ill never think about it again. Because as soon, as the game ends, the thought comes back into my minds. Half of the time, i spend straining myself trying to decipher its meaning. Not being hypocritical, I rage sometimes too, but not with those words, etc. But actually with words normal people can actually comprehend.

Rager: WTF :@ YOU NOOB! ILL PWN YOU!

Me: er what the fuck?

Rager: You fkn nooob, stop ksing me!!!

Me: Have a cry. Ill ks whoever the fk i like.

Rager: F*CK YOU! YOU LAGGGGER!

Me: NO, i do NOT lag, i have fast net cunt!

Rager: - continues to rage.

Me: JUST FKN RELAX!

Rager: /rage quits.

What else, that makes me mad is that.

Most of the pro's in Wolfteam, all think they are the 'BEST'.

Okay okay, everyone knows you're really good, now stop being so up yourself.

ALSO! They can never, admit other players are also good.

Ugh, pro's calls everyone noobs.

And also, to all the wolfteam laggers. Why play, when you can hardly see yourself properly?

Please, just quit. For your sake, and everyone else's.

AND! also, old gamers. 40+.

What is this?

Im not being cruel, and saying that you cant play a game.

Because anyone can play.

But honestly, children play games. Mostly under the age of 25.

Do you not have anything better to do than sit at home playing games that are not suited for your age?

Do you actually get some strange sadistic pleasure?

Okay enough ranting now.

I think im being too mean.

Over and out. x

ZZZZZOOOMMMMMMGGGG

1 and a half more weeks!

UNTIL SAN COMES BACK! HELL YEAAAAAH!

I MISS HER LIKE CRAZY :D

AND SHE'S BEEN IN AMERICA FOR AGES D: HURRY BACK PLEASE!

She's an awesome friend! She makes me laugh constantly.

TOTALLY NEED TO SEE YOU :(

Then we can so scream 'Curse Of Curves' for the millionth time.

I've got so many things to tell you.

at least she's having a blast.

I love you buddy :D

Have a safe trip home.

over and out. x

Totally.

Ew, totally not up for msn tonight, or the next or the next etc.

Pointless blog, you can suck my dick.

Over and out. x

HAVE A SAFE TRIP TONY :)

Dude, seriously.

My shoulders are bright RED! well only my left shoulder D: But it still hurts D: I totally can't compare mine to Tony's, Because its so so so so so so burnt, its not even funny. Anywho, yesterday was the best day, ever. We had so much fun :) The majority of the time at the bay, i was with Tony anyways, so i cant complain :)

Anyways, when i arrived home, i was overloaded with people on msn asking about my day :) I didnt lie, and replied 'awesome'. Half an hour later, Tony came online :D He clicked me as usual. But we didnt get to talk much, because he kept on brbing D: So i decided to say 'BRB' to 4 of my friends, but unfortunately for them, I never came back. Ha! So my best friend, Thuy Chi and I decided to crank my music and we both ended up laying on my bed and had a long long long long chat, while i was waiting for Tony to hurry back. My brother came home, and decided it would be funny to scare the both of us, by turn off my bedroom lights. Totally not. I decided to keep the lights off, because they were better like that. Thuy Chi and I talked more about her problems and mine :) It was actually a really fun talk. The whole hour or so, I kept on looking at the screen to see a flash. Half way through our conversation, i saw a flash at the bottom of my screen, i totally ignored my best friend and i jumped up from my bed, to check who it was. My excitement immediately disappeared when i saw it was someone else, i assumed it was Tony but no, it wasnt D: So I layed down again, and talked.

Half an hour later which felt like forever, Tony came back, all excited. Apparently, he has accomplished something! Tony decided to webcam with me, and show off his awesome hair cutting skills :D He had cut Jorden's hair, and did up Hien's. They looked awesome :) But Tony still looked better, even though, he did not cut his hair :) But the worse thing was, they had glitter in their hair, and i didnt D: Totally, not fair.

Tony is leaving Adelaide today, im not ready for his departure D: But my mother got me credit, this morning :) I was hoping to sleep in today, but obviously that didnt manage to work out. The next few days, this blogspot may be my home D: Constant complaining for the next nine days.

Suck on this blog bitches.

Over and out. x

I love you Tony.

Totally awesome :)

Im getting ready for the bay :D mmm yeah. Im pretty tired though, due to lack of sleep for the past few days.

Ew, im hungry :D once again. the best friend and the cousin is nearly over D: im totally not ready, but who cares :)

Yesterday, i finally was proud of myself. I accomplished this thing, i did in the spur of the moment, i thought it was gay, my brother thought it was gay too, but a few said it was okay :)

So im pretty happy.

Anywho, im gonna get something to eat, before i've got to go :D

Bye now.

She's got a way of making things okay, when she's not around.

When she's not around, im going crazy :)

Over and out baaaaaaaaaby. x

hey you :) YEAH YOU!

Tony, i'm completely and utterly, in love with you.

Ever since the first day we talked ;D

One day, i'm going to show you how much you really mean to me.

But for now, i'm going to continue loving you :)

without a third party there to distract me ;D

Wolfteam~

I could've done better, seriously :)

Ha! I feel better now.

But I just want to show you how much me and my dear brother fight.

For example;

Brother: Hey, get me fooood.

Me: No!

Brother: GET IT!

Me: OMFG, GET IT YOURSELF!

Brother: No, i cant. Im playing games.

Me: GET OFF YOUR LAZY BITCH ASS AND GET IT YOURSELF.

Brother: ILL TELL MUM ABOUT TONY!

Me: And what? WHAT ARE YOU GONNA SAY HUH?

Brother: Everything.

Me: You dont know JACK SHIT!

Brother: Oh yes i do. Now GET ME FOOD!

Me: GO SCREW A WALL.

Brother: Mummmmmmmmmmmmm!

Me: /shits myself. FINE! YOU DICKHEAD! ILL GET IT FOR YOU!

Ew, i swear i so hate him so much. Stupid overpowering bitch ass fuck face.

Another example;

Me: /punches brother.

Him: WHY THE HELL DID YOU DO THAT?

Me: DUDE IT WAS A JOKE.

Him: /punches me back.

Me: PFT. That totally didnt hurt.

Him: /punches 245346767 times harder.

Me: OUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCH! YOU FAGGOT!

Him: WHY'D YOU CALL ME A FAGGOT FOR?

Me: You freaking punched me, you cunt.

Him: MUMMMMMM! SHE CALLED ME A 'C' WORD!

Me: SHUT UP DUDE, you freaking dibby dobber.

Him: Call me that again, and ill tell mum about Tony.

Me: Oh for fuck sakes. STOP BLACKMAILING ME ABOUT TONY!

Him: Then stop swearing at me.

Me: NO! YOU'RE THE ONE BEING MEAN!

Him: Fine, im going to mum now.

Me: NO!

Him: SAY SORRY THEN!

Me: For what?!

Him: Calling me cunt.

Me: NO! YOU'RE THE ONE WHO HIT ME HARDER!

Him: Fine, im telling.

Me: FINE! GO THEN!

Him: Okay then bitch /walks out.

Me: /cries.

HE CANT DO ANYTHING FOR HIMSELF. Always has to depend on me! And if i dont meet his needs, to goes tell on me for random shit, or blackmails me about Tony.

I always shoves my rude finger at him, infront of my parents when we eat dinner or whatever, and i get into trouble. He's the one being a dickhead, ffs.

I bet if i left this house, he wouldnt survive without me. Because in the end, the cunt always gets his way; one way or another, by his manipulating skills or he blackmails. I swear, one day, im going to go to jail, for First Degree Murder.

I have an asshole, for a brother.

Over and out. x

I wanna be faithful..

But i cant keep my hands out the cookie jar.

Tony is off walking the dogs, maybe. LOL totally cute :) Ew, my family is hilariously screwed. Anywho, tomorrow is TG's Birthday Beach Bash. How exciting, totally.

Hey, i think i might need some sleep today, little nap.

Head to feet, they so damn sweet :)

Over and out bitches. x

You had me at hello.

Dude, im like so sick of waiting. My head totally hurts D: Maybe its the weather, who knows.
Well im like totally into this whole blogging thing :D Freaking awesome. I am going to post like 3432558 blogs a day. Ew, im hungry. I think i gonna go find some food, to eat :D

Over and out. x

Its 11:40

And he decides that it was finally time, to head home. We are totally not talking to him. I wonder where he's been.

Over and out. x

Start of Summer '09

That day at the beach, was so totally awesome :) It wasnt too hot, it wasnt too cold. Me, Makayla and another friend from school, spent a nice day together.
We also went to eat fish and chips at the store down the road. Ew totally never going there again. Me and Makayla had to literally use paper, to drench out excess oil. It was absolutely disgusting.
After taking 5 thousand photo's in the water, we decided it was enough because our clothes were pretty wet. Also, i suggested to take my shorts off because they were like soaked and walk around in undies, but no. My dear friends didnt allow that behaviour. Well, i thought it was pretty funny, but they didnt seem to find it funny at all. Overall, i had a fun day :)

But I did miss tony

Wolfteam Ownage.

I am sunny08, pretty awesome hey? I even bet the silver bar; StriderDat. Totally Pro :) My K/D is alright, i could've done better.

note: They are not noobs, they have their pro accounts, but in this case, they are using their noob accounts.

ew i hate this household.

Omg, its like 10:35 and im so tired, i didnt get much sleep last night D: But the freaking father did not come home at all last night. Where the fuck? I would have no clue. My mother couldnt even sleep, now she's heaps (U) and he doesnt even care. Go dig a hole, seriously. Im gonna like ignore him now, for fuck sakes. This week is totally not cool, getting angry so easily. Also, its a fkn new start of a brand new year, isnt it suppose to be a happy fresh? Well obviously im not happy. Ugh, i have a massive headache :$ Its not even funny, well i wonder where he really is D: With some whore, and ill ram my foot down his throat and the other foot up her ass. And im really not joking, so he should worry. Anywho, its pretty early, and im waiting for a certain somebody, to get online D: Zzz. I wonder if he's at the gym, if not, high chance he's still asleep. I can wait, yeah definitely. Im actually so tired, tears are dripping from my eyes, dont worry i am not crying, i swear.

Over and out. x

Its love.

Well before i head off to bed, i think that Tony should get a special mention in this blog. Which conveniently happens to be about you, and only you. Well i just wanted to tell you how much i love you, and blogging about you, is pretty god damn awesome, dont you think?

I honestly love you, Tony.

First Blog :)

Oh my first blog :D Haha, well its 11:40, and im pretty tired D: But im staying on msn. Im listening to Khrys Lawson ft. t-Pain - Im Missing You. Fucking awesome song. Well the whole house is already asleep, and im awake. Meh, im probably going to be bored of blogging soon, but this phase should drag on for approximately 2 weeks, possibly shorter, possibly longer. We'll see.

Well for starters,

1. I love music :) Well, who doesnt? My favourite bands and singers etc, are amazing, i would love to write them down, but maybe another day. Also, the amount of favourite songs i have, in a month, are ridiculously countless.

2. I absolutely hate Dota, i honestly think it should go suck serious ass, it fucking ruins lives. It basically is, for people with no lives, people who have nothing better to do but play a pointless life-sucking game, or people who think its 'cool' because apparently, all asian guys play dota. Um reality check, YOU'RE FUCKING WRONG.

- Dota, turns boys against their parents, parents against their sons, boys against their best friends, boys against their girlfriends. You see, my point? It ruins lives.

Enough for now :) Over and Out.