the girl next door.

Hello there, I'm Joanna, I'm a 15 year old girl who resides in average Adelaide.
I wish I could wake up early and walk around my block every morning, to get fit.
I love the weekends, because that's when I don't have to worry about anything.
I've been with my boyfriend, for quite a long time and I love him more than anything.
I like honest people but some are too opinionated.
I can't be angry or hate someone for too long, life's too short.
I love every song of Taylor Swift, I think she's really amazing.
I believe that, I have an OCD with my school diary /hehe.
One day, I will write a long long list of all the things I want to do before I die.

about this blog

Cute photo's and meaningful lyrics ♬
I like to write and write when I'm either bored, down, happy or excited.
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seduction leads to destruction.

And as we walked we were talking.
I didn't say half the things I wanted to.
Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window.
I'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold.

Hey Tony, I could give you fifty reasons.
Why I should be the one you choose.
All those other girls, well they're beautiful.
But would they stick around?

I just got home.

Everyone went to see Dung today :)

Like 20 people were there!

But it was so good to see him :D

I think he was happy, that everyone came.

Me and Makayla was about to hug him

but then his bedside rails, were too tall :(

So we couldnt :(

I already miss him D:

I got to see Tony today (A)

Highlight of my day <3

Early morning.

I woke up really early today, because I have a msn date with Tony, this morning.

So i decided to fully get ready and all before I went on msn.

It's only 6:53 but I've nearly done everything :) Except for my hair.

Second day back zz I have gay lessons today.

But we're going to see Dung afterschool.

Save those words for me..

Fuck me.

So I was suppose to be seeing Tony on Saturday, both morning and night.

But not anymore, I only get to see him in the morning, then fucking waiting for another week.

We can't do anything about it, but that's okay.

No one really knows how much we both love Saturday nights.

We always spend Saturday nights together --'

So you know what? FUCK ME.

And I was heaps looking forward for this week, especially.

And you know what else?

I really fucking hate it how school has already started.

I barely get to see him now.

And we don't talk as much as before.

Because of everything.

So again, FUCK ME.

Just another blog.

I have tutoring soon :(
And I really cannot be bothered.
I seriously just want to stay and talk to Tony.
He's feeling sick, and it's making him feel not so good.
I wish I could do something about it, but I can't.
Gah, I so wanna see Dung!
I hope he's better and I hope it's not hurting as much anymore.
Tony wants to go tomorrow, but I can't go.

I gotta wait til Saturday to see Tony next.
MF, bloody hell, I haven't seen him since Sunday night.

I'll post another blog as soon as I get back from tutoring.
I love you to the end of the earth <3

Libra + Gemini.

This will be a very stimulating relationship.

One sign compliments the other and brings out the better part of each other's nature.

Gemini will find it easy to communicate with libra that is only too happy to share information and ideas.

This makes libra and Gemini a very good match indeed!

Tony and I were so totally made for each other :)

I redid my blogspot :)

I think it looks alright. Don't chu think?

I want something to go down tonight, so i get to see Tony

for the last time, til Saturday :/

If you think about it, it's quite a long time..

and I haven't spoken to him since like 12 midnight :(

Now I really miss him.

Um, and me and Jorden wanna go see Dung again!

We might go again if Tony wants to go.

Ugh, school tomorrow, and I really cbf.

The load of homework is going to start piling up again.

Ah shit, that reminds me, I need to do my PLP essay thing.

- Due Wednesday.

But on the other hand, I'm all ready.

My uniform is ironned (A)

And my bag is ready too.

Soo ...

Me, Tony, Jorden and Johnny went to visit Dung last night.

It was good seeing him, but he didn't look so good :(

Sigh/ I hope you get better Dungg!

We're all praying for you (F)

Close call.

Last night, was horrible.

Not to exaggerate, but I actually felt sick to the stomach.

Me and Tony had a ..... fight over something.

First thing I did, I told Makayla to call me right away.

Because, I needed to tell her, or else I would've not worked it out by myself.

She would be the first person, I told any problem too.

So she called me, and I was literally in tears.

My brother was right next to me, and the whole time,

he told me to stop crying --'

It was the worse night to have a fight,

because I was actually about to go out to eat with my family.

What a catastrophe ...

Anywho, in the car, I asked my parents if I could stay back and try to mend things with him.

But they said, if I stayed back, they would too.

So I couldn't let them miss out on dinner --'

It was truly embarrassing, because I kinda cried the whole way there and so on.

I barely ate jackshit, and had a massive cup of Coke for dinner, just great ...

I begged my parents to go home, because my head was about to explode.

When I got home, I did a whole bunch of explaining.

And for some reason, Tony understood and forgave me ... sort of..

Trust isn't there anymore, and he said that I had to earn it back.

And yes, I promised him this wouldn't happen anymore.

And this time, without doubt I'm going to stick to my promises.

Because there was such a big possibility that he would've ended things.

I was so sure that this was the end.

But he stuck to his words and went through with the promise he made me

... earlier

Gah, I hope last night never ever happens again.

I still feel sick to the stomach, and I feel so guilty.

I'm sorry Tony, and I promise it won't happen again.

I love you so much to let it all go now.

And thankyou Makayla :)

I really should start learning to fight my own battles.

I love you so bloody much, and I know you love me too (A)

And I know you've always got my back <3

Thanks to a very close call,

I've realised what really matters.

Although, my mistakes could've ended everything we've ever worked on.

You still decided to stick by me.

I just want us to forget this whole thing.

I hate myself for letting it get out of hand.

Can't let a good thing go down the drain.
Hey girl, it's ups and downs but we got to maintain.
I know it get hard out there (Hard out there)
I know i get rough out there (Ooh)
But you can't leave, I can't do this without you.
Hey you can't go, I can't do this without you.
There's one thing you must know, I can't do this without you.
Cause baby I need you by my side, I can't do this without you.

I love you Tony - too much to let it happen again.

Awesome day.

I met Tony and Jorden at the movies @ 10 :/

I came abit late, so they blamed that I was too busy wolfteaming.

LOOOOL! I swear I wasn't late because of gaming (A)

Anywho, we actually bought tickets to 17 again.

Because we aren't rebels :)

The movie was really good and the rest was good (A)

The cinema we were in was so bloody small, and most of the seats were taken D:

Jorden sat alone, because he's a natural loner, and me and Tony sat together.

After the movie, Adelaida and Marilyn came and we bummed around the cinema for a while.

We finally decided it was time to go town. We sat on the road for like bloody half an hour.

Tony and I sat on the chair while the others sat on the road.

After a while, this african woman started to talk on the phone with whoever.

So Tony started to laugh alot at her --'

Everyone was like WTF.

Yes, we all know Tony is racist! Haha!

So we had to move away before we got rolled. So me and him joined the others on the road.

I saw Makayla when we were about to get onto the bus. Hahah ..

It took ages to actually get to town, and I was getting car sick because Tony made me watch some awesometown shit..

I was funny :D

We sat at the wrong spot, I swear the most fobbiest viet people sat behind us --'

When we got to town, we went to eat straight away. haha!

Me and Tony separated from the others, and went shopping instead.

I saw this most prettiest dress ever, $90.

But I obviously couldn't buy it because I literally had to fucking money.

And then I saw another dress $60, and I wanted that also --'

We found two nice shirts for Tony, so he bought it.

After we went to get me boost juice, someone shouted my name.

I was likee O_________O WTH.

Then I saw Madison running to me. I actually got really excited.

Because I haven't seen her for like 2 year D:

So she hugged me and we went our own ways.

After the shopping, we decided to meet up with the others in the food court.

I said something stupid, then Jorden had to tell everyone about it.

Yes, it was fucking embarrassing.

But Adelaida said more funny shit, so I was goood(A)

I made Tony bring me to the pet store, because I told him,

I wanted a new puppy!

So we looked and then walked away from the group for the 100005435th time.

We sat somewhere alone, and he sang me a song.

I nearly cried .. but it was funny :)

After that, we went into Hype to look at shoes.

We both saw these shoes, that I really like.

And Tony said he was going to buy me them.

I was excited, but I don't think I'm gonna get them anymore.

Meh, I'll find other ones.

Then we went home.

Over and out.

Ugh.

Too tired.

And no mood to write anything.

I'll update you guys, about my day; tomorrow.

Over & out x.

No more ranting..

I miss you Tony :)

So bloody much.

Gah

Today is the worse Wolfteam-playing day ever.

Everyone is hating on me today :/

Dammit, it's not even funny anymore.

Ffs, I am not noob =='

Some dude called me a noob lagger.

1. I had a better fucking k/d than he did.

2. My net is actually good.

I cannot wait til BlackShot comes out.

So grrr --'

FROM NOW ON: I'M PLAYING IN THE US SERVER.

NEVER PLAYING IN AUSTRALIAN SERVER EVER AGAIN. /cries.

I HATE YOU WOLFTEAM!

YOU HURT MY FEELINGS :(

mutasm (L) rainy08

LOOOOOOOOOL so this morning, I jumped on Wolfteam for the second time.

And Mutasm started talking to me. Lol at that, because I swear he loves Tony.

He was like to me: I told him my secret XD How cute right. Haha!

So he told me his secret too. And if I didn't believed him, I should ask Tony (A)

And he has Tony's msn. HAHAH! AWWW.

If you're reading this babe,

Youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

so love MUTASM.

But you should know, that I love you more.

You better surrenderrrr ...

Last night, so freaking hecktic.

I was so emotionally drained --'

Problems everywhere, from everyone :/

But fortunately, I slept off all of my stress.

And I feel great this morning.

Except for the fact, I miss a few people :(

This morning I woke up to a text, it was from Tony.

He had to go visit a family friend in hospital.

And we were suppose to have a msn date at 9:30,

but that wasn't happening. So I stayed in bed for another half

an hour. When I woke up, I couldn't be screwed talking to anyone on

msn, so I told them that I was going to play Wolfteam. SO DND (A)

It was a 40 minutes game, and I was ace for the whole entire team.

I had 39 kills, something deaths, I can't remember it, but It wasn't too bad.

ps: I really like that song, Tony sent me last night.

/dances.

Overrrrrrandoutbabe.

Alright, so there's this guy.

HE'S REALLY GAY :)

But I still love him lots.

/smiles.

He cheers me up when I'm down.

And he makes me laugh with his silly jokes.

He texts me most nights, when I get off msn.

Telling me he misses me.

It leaves me smiling, when I go to bed.

No one is more awesome than he is :)

Trust meeeeeeee.

/kicks

I think I'm having one of them down days :(

I feel shit today .. /sad smile.

But don't worry, I'm usually a really happy person :D

So here's the plan.

I suck up to my parents til my 16th :)

Why? Because SILLY, I want another puppy - duh /dances.

I don't know if they will buy me one though D:

But when I grow big enough balls, I'll ask them, and I will tell them

that I will look after the puppy very well, PROMISE! /pinky promises.

Well too bad, if they refuse to buy me one. BECAUSE I ALREADY know what I'm going to name her.

:D Yes, I shotgun a girl puppy :) Because silly, I'm going to name her PRINCESS ;D

Anywho, a few days of choring.

My father decided to let me out on Wednesday.

I cannot wait /dances.

I get to see Tony. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY /squeels.

OH, ALRIGHT, LISTEN TO LISTEN.

There's this jacket I want, it's pretty alright.

$70 :) Quite cheap for something like that.

And there's this sweater yeah? $40.

There's this other sweater $35.

And I really want them all.

I need more $$$, because I wanna buy them all at once.

MOTHERFUCKER I NEED MONEY.

ANYWAYS, I've been thinking, I should find a hobby --'

Because I always reply way too fast on msn.

When me and him talk, it's like always me replying fast.

And it makes me look stupid. So I'm going to find something to do while msn, sigh/

Geeez zzz.

Here’s to silence that cuts me to the core.

Just great ... sigh/

Stupid misunderstanding, and he doesn't even know yet.

It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always.

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Mergh, Ugh, Eewwgh, WTF am i writing? --'

He has tutoring sooooooooooon. /lets out massive sigh.

Today has been so gay, nothing to do.

WHAT TO DO, WHAT TO DO.

I guess i'll go watch a movie when he's gone.

I hate wolfteam now. I only go on to play like 2 games a day.

Bloody hell, I wanna watch A Cinderella Story :/

But I kinda fucking broke it --'

mf, seriously.

His stupid awkward super delayed replies --' leaves me with nothing to do. Sigh/

So I thought i'd just write another blog about my day.

I wanna stay up late tonight, but not sure if that's happening.

And I stare at the phone and he still hasn’t called.

And you feel so low you can’t feel nothin at all.

And you flash back to when he said forever and always.

I miss my San :(

Dammit /slams fist.

I wanna see you D:<

So we can recite 'The Curse of Curves" /dances

I miss everything :(

I miss Tony.

Even though we're sorta talking ... SORTA.

This is so gay, I swear.

I think he's showering soon.

I wonder what he's doing, because it seems like he's busy --'

But i will not complain or even ask.

OH WAIT.

NEVERMIND, he's playing swords and sandals.

l o l ... --'

Baby what happened please tell me

Cause one second it was perfect and now you’re half way out the door.

over & out x

Sweet mother of Jesus :)

I miss Tony.

^_________^

HELLO BLOGSPOT.

So like, I haven't blogged in a very long time. I even forgot I had a blogspot.

But I was so bored today, everyone has gone out. And i'm feeling lonely.

Everyone i know, is using blogspot now :) But I think I'm just going to tell a few people

about this. Keeping it on the DL!

Lately, I've found so many bloody awesome songs, that I totally love.

Oh I was suppose to be going to Aquatics Centre with the boys.

But my little cousin came over to play, so my brother and I stayed home.

All Time Low's concert is approaching. I so want to go, but I think the tickets

have been sold out. Sigh/ A few friends of mine, might be going. I'll be shattered if I'm not going. Oh well, if I don't go, It will be fine the next day, because it is Tony's birthday. How exciting.

Ugh, my bloody net is running out so bloody fast.

Seriously, Wolfteam is killing all my dls, and all the things we've downloaded this month.

Sigh/

This morning, I heard good news from Eleanor. I'm happy for her.

Anyways enough about the depressing things in my life. Yesterday was so bloody awesome,

I swear. First half of my day I went shopping with my family. My parents went together and my brother and I went together. Everyone had lots of fun. I found a few great picks ... so I bought it. And there's this jacket, I really love. No doubt, that I'm going to get it. I'm waiting til I get enough money to pay my mother off $100, but I'm so sure that she won't let me pay her back.

Oh well, I might just slip it in her purse or something. Sigh/

The last half of my day was more than amazing. We went to Jorden's, as usual. And had fun.

Tony and I had a good day. He's so fun. Enough said.

I cannot wait to see him next. I love you so much, more than anything.

Over & out x.