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the girl next door.
Hello there, I'm Joanna, I'm a 15 year old girl who resides in average Adelaide.I wish I could wake up early and walk around my block every morning, to get fit. I love the weekends, because that's when I don't have to worry about anything. I've been with my boyfriend, for quite a long time and I love him more than anything. I like honest people but some are too opinionated. I can't be angry or hate someone for too long, life's too short. I love every song of Taylor Swift, I think she's really amazing. I believe that, I have an OCD with my school diary /hehe. One day, I will write a long long list of all the things I want to do before I die. |
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about this blog
Cute photo's and meaningful lyrics ♬I like to write and write when I'm either bored, down, happy or excited. Click on the archives, so you can read my older posts, if you want. Add me to your blog list? Copy my blogsite URL then, click here. http://www.blogger.com/home archives
seduction leads to destruction.
And as we walked we were talking.I didn't say half the things I wanted to. Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window. I'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold.
Hey Tony, I could give you fifty reasons. |
Undecided.
I don't even know if I'm going to retreat.I have to, but I guess sleeping there and talking late at night will be fun. Ugh, fucking hell. DO I GO OR NOT? What would you do without true friends?
Yesterday was an eye opener for me. I learnt who my true friends were. Who were there for me, and who simply didn't care. One of my friends said, 'A sad face doesn't suit you.' He is right, because a sad face doesn't suit anybody.I also learnt that I could not stay mad at Tony for no longer than an hour.Yeah, you could say that, I love him alot & he should know it. I am currently watching WWE Afterburn. Jeff Hardy and Chris Jericho are wrestling now.
So you asked me why I love you?
The real answer is ...The way you look at me, you make me seem like the only girl in the world. The way you wink, it's so so cute. The way you make me laugh, even when I'm so angry at you. The way you say my name, it's beautiful, don't you ever change. The way you compliment me, every time you see me. The way you make me so so safe, when you're around. The way you sing to me, every night. The way you give me big hugs, when I'm cold. The way you ask me to dance, but I only give you a twirl. The way you smile, I have never met anyone else so amazing. The way you swear, only in good situations. The way you always have a good opinion, about all my songs. The way you love my family, as much as I do. The way you give me and only me your love, unconditionally. The way you are so understanding, even when I'm not. The way you forgive me, eventually. The way you manage to live with my moods, each and every day. The way you never pressure me into anything, I'm not ready for. The way you understand me sometimes, when others don't. The way you always let me sook to you, when the problem isn't about you. The way you let me cry my eyes out, when I get hurt. The way you talk about our future, like we're old people. The way you know how to turn every bad situation, into a good one. The way you leave me happy, when going to sleep. The way you tell me how much you love me, every single day. The way you can make my day, with just spending time with me. The way you introduce me to your friends, as your girlfriend. The way you bitch about other girls, it makes me feel better about myself. The way you make yourself the centre of attention, whenever and wherever we go. The way you love Taylor Swift and the Hannah Montana movie, as much as I do. Hey Tony, I can give you 101 reasons why I love you so much, but I think you have a fair idea by now. Out of all the girls tossing rocks at your window. I'll be there, even when it's cold. Hello beautiful.
 Dear Tony, I love you, day and night. Wish I'd never have to experience life without you. Bye. Love Joanna. I-I-IRRELEVANT. Today was a great day, apart from 4 lessons with Mrs. Emmel. Last two double lessons, Hospitality. It was the best lesson, I've had all term. We baked these biscuits. They tasted like poo. Way too sweet, for my liking .. or anybody else's. But me and kaayla, are actually great cooks. Mrs. Bray always compliments our food, every single lesson. We made a new friend today, she's so funny. Blamed the bad biscuits on her /hehe. I told her to "Keep your hands, out of the cookie jar." Only because everytime we turned around, we saw her eating them! Haha, the biscuits weren't even suppose for us. Just for the school tour. UNLUCKY, for them. I was so bored before, I painted another picture for Tony. It's not so great, but whoever said I was an artist? I can't wait to see him tomorrow, I haven't seen him for exactly one week :/ I'm waiting for him to come back from town, it's 9:01 now. Oh well, too tired to even think about it. Ugh, come back already. Fuck. So, before my brother went ape shit on me. He told me to turn off my music. Well I'm sorry, if you don't love Taylor Swift as much as I do! She's been on repeat over and over again for two days now. I've literally have not listened to anything else, 'cept for her songs. - Whateverrrrr mate, I'm not turning it off, or down. I've been so tired these days. & I've been sleeping early too. Friday nights are fun. You don't have to worry about a thing. One week of school is finished! I-I-IRRELEVANT. Dear Tony, You invade my dreams. Camp out in the corners of my mind. And occupy my heart. Love Joanna, You used to call me beautiful, everyday.
I know I said things would be okay.But I can't do this everyday. Seems like everyday is a situation. You're so oblivious to it all, aren't you? He can't see the smile, I'm faking. And my heart's not breaking. Because I'm not feeling anything at all. And you were so wild and crazy. Just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated. Taylor Swift - The Way I Loved You.
Okay so, I thought I'd write a blog about Taylor Swift and Lucas Till. No one really knows how much I love Taylor Swift! She was also in the Hannah Montana movie. Which was amazing, because I loved every single bit of it. I've been listening to all these Taylor Swift songs alot and alot again! We even listened to You Belong With Me, in art today. I could never get over her /hehe. Tony has abit of a crush on her. It's totally obvious!  Lucas Till, stars in Taylor's You Belong With Me MV. I think he's so so so hot. Some people might not agree, but whatever.
I fucking agree Tony, he has the best smile ever! How bloody cute, isn't he?   How hot is Taylor Swift in this picture! I love her more, with straight hair. Winter girl.
 I'm missing Tony, a fair bit :( If I was a mirror, baby you'd be my reflection. Watch you all the time, you're the vision of perfection. He's napping at the moment. Can't wait to talk to you tonight babe! & when I see you - heavennnnn! I finished my tutoring lesson. He introduced me to 'Angles of Elevation' Never heard of it, until now. Well today, stupid b!tches. Some people are sly. I have no idea what to write about them. LOL, just thought everyone should know. Ugh, last night. I had the worst dream ever. Like no joke, when I woke up, I was on the verge of crying. Sadface. Anyways, I thought that Makayla deserves a mention in this post. Why? Because silly, last night she wrote one just for me (A) She introduced honey sandwiches to me, fucken yuuuum! Think you should bring it tomorrow, mm? kthnx! ♥ you Tony. I promisee you.  Oh, & I dig these shoes, in the picture. Yuuuuum! With you.
 Eww, tomorrow is school! That's so gay -.- But I get to see my friends, so that's aaaaaight. Ummm, tonight has been absolutely .. okay. Mm, at least me and Tony are talking, right? So much for that break. So tonight, me and Jorden was discussing how we would be if our certain lover, were to leave us. Hahaaah! Was a dramatic conversation. Last night was so bad. All I could think about was why we were apart. Everything is better with you, Tony. I can't wait to see you this weekend! Definitely going to be amazing. It would be so hard, to say goodbye to you Tony. Seriously, I don't think I could ever do it. & I definitely never ever want to experience it. I want to be with you, forever. Yeah that word, forever sounds so .. overrated. But so what? I would love forever with you. I hope that you let down your guard a little bit more. So I can get closer. I love it when you talk mushy to me, because it makes me feel so good inside & happy. When you talk mushy, I feel so sure of what we have. So, thankyou for reassuring me everytime, I'm unsure about something. I'll give you everything you want and everything you need. All you need to do is ask. The Dream - Can't Wait To Hate You.
@$#%
I can't stand this break.A break does not mean BREAK UP.
Why does everyone think having a break leads to a break up. Okay, maybe some relationships do. But not every relationship. We need this break, to sort some things out in our heads on our own. Without the other, influencing any decisions. I wonder if the break lasted roughly a week, would you lose feelings for me? I think you just need to straighten out your priorities, & then we're good. Because I already know what my top priority is. Now you need to know too. I know I'll still love you after this. Perhaps, stronger feelings. We promised that nothing will change after this thing we call a break. I'm not going anywhere, so hopefully you won't either. Almost seven months, officially. I feel so loved when I'm with you. But when we're not together, I feel distant from you. Lately, the only best times I have with you, is when I actually get to see you. Hopefully, after a few days of being without each other, things will mend itself. This break is only for a few days, maybe. At least, it gives us a chance to miss each other. Hopefully, it's not too long. Hopefully, this will be the only break. You wanted to call it a vacation, because it sounded better and you didn't want the word break, to scare me. But I want this to be serious, so I'm calling it a break. But I am strong .. sometimes. You said that I'll survive this. But I told you that if you don't see me around anymore. It means that I've rolled myself in a carpet & rolled off a bridge. I was only kidding! I know this will be hard. But I'd do anything for us to get better. I don't want to broadcast this to the world, but whoever reads this, keep in mind. We're not breaking up. So don't go skitz at either of us. Because I've told one person already, & they went psycho for a few minutes. If you happen to be reading this. Have fun tonight, don't get depressed & get fully wasted. Even though, I know you're gonna get all drunk, Don't make it because of me <3 I miss you, already! I had an amazing time with you, yesterday Tony. I hope we'll never have to let it come to this ever again. I really do truly love you, more than anyone else. I love you, so so so much.  Your world is my world. Your fight is my fight. My breath is your breath. Dear blog followers.
Who reads my blogs? Whoever reads them, somehow tell me (A) xxxx ♥ you loads.
 I hope you get better Tony! I hate it when you're sick :( So, today is homework day, for me -.- I have to, get alot done today. So I can go out tomorrow! Hopefully we can go to the Stardsut circus tomorrow! But, I haven't got the tickets yet, so I'm not so sure. If not, we'll just do the normal double date. Movies then town. But, let's not call it double date, because that sounds gay. Mmm, Tuesday night, the cousins came over and we had a slumber party. Movie marathon. All scary ones. But I only managed to watch 2 of them movies, because Tony called me at 12. I went to talk to him, while the cousins and my brother watched the movies. Soon, one of my cousin ditched the movie marathon and called his girlfriend. My brother and other cousin kept on watching all the movies 'til 4. Me and Tony ended up talking 'til 3, because he had to wake up early the next day to go to the gym. I had to shove my head under my pillow and blankets, so I could sleep. Because my cousin was still on the phone -.- After the phone sessions, me and Jorden, had a massive D&M. We kept on talking 'til 5:30AM. By then, I was literally on the verge of throwing up. That's how sick I felt :( I didn't get to sleep 'til 6 in the morning. My head was spinning and spinning in circles. The next day, everyone woke up with ugly bags under our eyes D: Season finale of Ghost Whisperers & Grey Anatomy's tonight! Going to be awesome. I miss you Tony, get better! I loveeeeeee you baby ♥
  All I want is your time.
Can't go far, but you can always dream.
 So, this morning. I was going through all my things. & you'll never guess what I found. Princess Fairyfloss! Last Christmas, the guys thought it would be funny to get me a Unicorn broom thingy. I named it Princess Fairyfloss ;) I took a photo of it, so you can all see!  Okay, I was about to give my room a clean today.
But Brandon came over today, so I guess that won't be happening. Haha, I just finished reading Makayla's recent blog. & she really needs to stop calling me MIDGET. Just so you know MAKAYLA! I've grown okay!? Haha, yes that's right, me .. grow! Ya dickhead ;) Anywho, I really feel like a trip to IKEA. Mother gave me money today, I'm going out with Tony tomorrow! I'm fair sure that we're shopping :) I'm also going shopping on Monday with my cousin. Should be awesome! My little sunshine
Good morning to you too :)  So, last night me and Tony went off the phone at 12:15? Approx. Things weren't great. I couldn't sleep for a very, I mean .. VERY long time. Kept on tossing and turning in my warm, but empty bed. I kept checking on my phone if he'd call me back. But I think he fell asleep, & that's okay. Because I'm sure he was fair tired. By 1:14. I'd had enough. My head was hurting, adding on with the sinus. The whole house was dark, because everyone had already slept. I walked into my parents room, with my pillow and blankie. & decided I would sleep with them, because obviously I couldn't sleep on my own, last night. Honestly, I sleep so much better with my parents than on my own. I think I feel more safe .. and warm! I didn't fall asleep until 1:30, maybe? But I forgot to bring in my phones :/ So I couldn't check anymore. This morning I woke up at 10. Asked my brother to bring in my phones. I received a message from Tony. He'd told me that he couldn't sleep well, when we were like this. Just want you to know Tony, that I don't sleep well either. I wish I didn't say what I had said to you. The silence was cutting me up. I'm sure I hurt your feelings when I told you how I felt. I know we're unstable right now. But I really want to make this work. I really love you. Just don't lose your feelings for me & things will be fine. Because I know that my feelings won't be changing anytime soon. I love you, I really do. Moving on, now. I cannot wait until Tony downloads the Hannah Montana movie. I swear it's so bloody awesome! :D I'm going to watch it over and over again. Moving on, again. Last night, I watched Criminal Minds. It was such a sad story, although quite creepy. After that, I watched Living with Michael Jackson. I swear, it was one of the most amazing things I've watched in a long time. It was a massive interview with the guy, himself. I hate the reporter/interviewer guy. He asked so many personal questions that MJ clearly didn't want to answer. But he was being very persistent, & kept on asking. He even made Michael Jackson cry a few times! Stupid guy. I wish I'd loved him when he was still alive. Michael Jackson is actually so kind hearted. His home, Neverland is actually so amazing. Michael Jackson told the reporter that he was Peter Pan. That he wanted to stay young and never grow up. He is very cute. He had said that he was shy and all that. His voice is also cute! This world really needs more people like Michael Jackson.
Keep holding on.
 Alright, so my face hurts. I'm fair sure I have a sinus problem. Eh, hopefully our plans for Saturday is still on. Lately, we've been .. well I don't know the word for it. I think we're growing apart. I thought that these holidays would be a time that we could spend more time talking or something like that. But I guess not. We're spending more time apart than ever. & I hate it. I'm sorry, if I keep complaining to you about everything. But I don't know how else I'm going to cope. Family commitments, I know. But I can't help but feel like this. Who's to blame though? No-one. We're too caught up in our own lives. Everything seems to be okay on the outside. Everything seems to be okay to you. Maybe I expect too much from you. Maybe I get my hopes up a little too high. My friend had told me that, The little things that we do, means so much to me. She says that it's not a good or bad thing. It just means that I care too much about the little things. From all the things we do, to the things we don't do. She thinks that I shouldn't worry too much about this. But how can I not? I would say I love you. & you would say, I love you too. Seems like a routine now. But when we don't say it alot. I say we don't say it enough. I don't even know what I want. If you're the air that I breathe, Tell me why I'm suffocating. ________________________________ So before, I was trying to finish off watching Another Cinderella Story, it's so good. But the file, was broken. So it kept on freezing. & it's not my laptop, I swear. Because I tried it on my computer too. It's getting to the good part too. & now it doesn't work anymore. Right now, I'm watching Criminal Minds. So goodbye. Rest in Peace Michael Jackson.
 In heaven, where you should be.
 Nope, he didn't change his mind. I didn't think so anyways. HANNAH MONTANA, I LOVE YOU!
 Well well well, just so you all know. I am not obsessed with Hannah Montana okay? No, really I'm not. I just really liked the movie. I really want to watch it RIGHT NOW! Anywho, I've been singing Miley Cyrus - Butterfly, fly away; all night! And when I couldn't sleep at night Scared things wouldn't turn out right You would hold my hand and sing to me. I did my blog up again. It has a different layout and everything. I think it's fair pretty. & I'm abit tired, to be honest. But I want to be here when Tony comes back from dinner. He says that he wants to sleep early tonight, because he's fair tired too. But I really hope he changes his mind. Tomorrow, I'm staying at home with my family. I have Another Cinderella Story, to watch tomorrow! Tony thinks it's like Camp Rock, but I liked that movie. So I'll probably like Another Cinderella Story too! Even more so, because I LOVED A Cinderella Story! Hilary Duff is amazing! Anywho, apparently Hilary Duff is joining Gossip Girl for the third season, this is going to be awesome! Although, a few of my friends aren't really impressed with that idea. I still can't wait! :) Butterfly, fly away.
 So today, Tony, Brandon and I went to see the Hannah Montana movie. It is actually one of my favourite movies now. Now Tony's downloading the movie for me, so I can watch it over and over again. Taylor Swift was also in the movie, but only for abit. I actually love her so so much! I never used to love Hannah Montana, but now I really do! The movie is so good, and all the songs were beautiful. + the guy is really cute, aswell. We spent the rest of the day in town. Miley Cyrus - Butterfly, fly away.
Your body is so sick.
 I am watching Supernatural, at the moment. I could proudly say that I have not ever missed out on one episode .. ever. Or when I did miss out, I would download it, & watch it. Dedicated fan ;) Anyways, I am one the last episode of Privileged. It is so good. Haha I'll continue watching it as soon as Supernatural is back. Bye for now. Silly infatuation.
  This is currently my phone wallpaper, I love it!  I came across these cute photo's. Thought I'd share. So, I think everyone hates 2009. It's no doubt. Anyways, I'm starting to miss people I used to talk to. Well, not everyone. I'm tired of hating on people. So I'm just going to quit being angry. I've noticed how angry I get these days. It's quite silly. And some people are so selfish these days. Not saying that, I'm not. Only good things in my life at the moment. is Tony. At least he keeps me sane. The holidays are amazing. I don't have to wake up early nor sleep early. Sleeping in, is so good. Well I went shopping on Saturday with my brother. I picked up a few things. A nice jacket and a black frilly top. Then when I got home from shopping, I was exhausted. I fell asleep for two hours or so. Then woke up and got ready to go to Jorden's. Tony came too, it was really fun. He slept over that night. I wanted to, but I'd doubt my parents would let me sleep over, if Tony slept over too /suss. When I got home, Tony called me. While Jorden called Marilyn. It was such a great night. Me, Tony, Jorden & Marilyn ended up talking on the phone, 'til almost 3 in the morning. The 4 of us, are going out tomorrow. It should be fun. |